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dear readers,

this is the typical but very necessary message. if i ever fail to properly cw something or make an inappropiate toot, please tell me inmediately so it can be removed as soon as i read the dm.

now i'll pin this, sorry for any future inconvenients!

acho el tren

me new profile pic, btw. I'll find the picrew later

oh i guess i usually do this so goodnight fedi! see you possibly not tomorrow!

i dont like the elitism some contemporary art has to it, like the vanguard had, you needed to know about the context in depth to get what it was about, which is not something everybody can easily get into. needless to say, some of it is really good at communicating a specific idea. our literature prof told us about a piece she saw at a museum. it was a wall full of clocks and a hammer hanging. i wasnt even there but that speaks to me. it wasnt just some "random thing".

ever since i've been *told* i'm going to canada i won't stop seeing tim hortons all around. im in spain. how the heck.

masto bot: don't marry american women
me: i'm GAY

okay i shoudln't have done that oh god why. someone abusive is trying to pull me back. i had forgotten about it. i wanna cry again. why does this happen to me.

i feel like opening my non-depress acount for whatever reason.

i woke up at 3pm feeling very tired and i wanna know what happened last night. it looks like it went horrible because my head still hurts.

felt like i needed to take this out. stuff happened. it might be a confusing poem but i hope that the general feel is there.

atentamente/sincerely

spanish: https://git.daelvn.ga/poetry/es/atentamente.html
english: https://git.daelvn.ga/poetry/en/sincerely.html

i really, really want to avoid self diagnosing with anything else for now, and although many times i reject labels, i really want to know the name of what i'm experiencing, i can't be alone in this. is this normal? is this what plurality is about? should i look into other personality disoders? should i just let it roll?

i've been letting it roll my entire life, but it/they won't go and even if it/they made me suffer sometimes i don't want it/them to go.

thing is, i *know* this other personality has always been with me, i talk to it/them daily, i represented them with my plushes, and i'm very certain that it's not me, at least not in many levels. i also know that sometimes i have changed between personalities without dissociating as i feel it, but i dont experience any memory loss, it feels like me but a completely different me. perhaps im just making normal things weird? (continued)

so for a while i've been suffering from depersonalization and derealization, and usually when that happens i tend to claim that "i"'m the true dael hidden under the person tooting every day, or generally exists, etc. recently i've been exploring this side of me through poetry, and i think it is linking to the imaginary friend/subconscious/other personality and recently it's been able to appear as some kind of ghost to me. (continued)

what do you mean hiding domains does not actually stop them from getting into my home tl? america explain

fun fact: until not much ago i used to consider myself a full on furry, and i still like the art, the suits, like, most of it, i was just so alienated from the community (because of my unability to stay in very big ones) that i decided just to, idk, stop. furries still have all my respect tho.

i have a fursona but that's a secret. don't tell anyone.

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aw heck, i was going to go to the graducation party but i got an official exam next morning and i really should sleep for it and be in time, so i guess i wont go. i kinda wanted to but that's perfectly fine, its not like i dislike being at home (not irony, promise).
i will probably go to the dinner tho, so thats fine, ill do many more parties to celebrate im going to canada.

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