If you're reading this (either on your feed or on my user page) and you are a person that has an untraditional take on self identity and outwards expression, allow me to put you at ease and tell you:
I DON'T CARE.
I could not care less how you view and express yourself. What matters to me is that you are a sentient, conscious, intelligent creature with which I can interact and hope to achieve fruitful and meaningful exchange.
So relax, don't label me and talk with me.
I won't bite.
As I'm going through the motions on how to evolve my... whatever... I'm coming up with a small theme list:
#nomasturbation - my challenge; this is to continue and broaden the scope
#sexlife - all things on sex; ideas, fantasies, practices, suggestions, sex toys
#selfimprovement - I want to shave down around 20kg; cooking, exercise, meditation
Oh, I also expect to become a bit more explicit in the future, with the random photo being uploaded. Better learn how to properly use the CW.
This is my "journal" on my journey into putting myself to the test and cleaning my act.
I've decided to stop masturbating for good.
Because I'm in a relationship, sexual encounters are the only outlet I will from now on consider legitimate.
Only problem is that I tend to have a very strong libido in opposition to my partner.
Want to hear a funny thing?
I stopped masturbating because I felt I was abusing it and dissipating myself. Discovering it heightened my sex drive was a very welcome bonus. Then my girlfriend discovered that not masturbating had increased my sensitivity to her ministrations.
She has, since then, made masturbating me some sort of an erotic necessity for her, in our sex life.
This was unexpected.
While updating my records, I just realized I've reached today the 150 days of not masturbating.
It has become easier. Not that my sex drive has gone down; but by becoming aware of it, I can endure it.
There are, obviously, occasions when masturbating still poses as tempting. When I feel sad or tense, for the sake of example. But it's manageable.
explicit; sexual content
Bored and half asleep but in the mood for thinking about sex.
Oral sex. It's an entire level of intimacy all by itself. Sadly, it seems to me to be taken more and more nowadays as something of little value, a trivial engagement, little more than an elaborate form of masturbation.
To have a mouth pleasure us, slowly, tenderly, with only our pleasure in mind as goal? That's a lot. A whole unappreciated lot.
Been away. Not much to talk about as of lately. There are too many things I want and need to do but not enough time to get to, so less than important things tend to be dropped.
I like Mastodon but it's not that relevant in my day to day life. In fact, I'm making a conscientious effort to disentangle myself from social networks more and more.
There's a lot of talking being done but not enough speaking. No meaningful discussions are created. And that is what I want and need.
Dreaming is my only haven to enjoy and explore my most outlandish fetishes and even discover some new ones. With the added bonus of not having wake up the,next morning and grieve bad or poorly made decisions.
Tonight I discovered the joy of anal sex in a tub of lemon scented lube. Infinitely available lubricant for added sensations and a strange sense of full body gripping/slowed motion.
Now I only need to find out where the lemon scent was coming.
My records state that I've reached day 128 on my #nomasturbation challenge.
I'm keeping true to my goal. I haven't masturbated in this time and even when trying out sex toys, I fit the experience into a sexual encounter, be it as part of it or a preamble for it. And it works.
Time to power forward and make this as enjoyable as possible. Next mark: 150 days.
I'll be trying a large batch of items over the next few weeks, starting with cock rings and stepping up from that, until I receive the chastity device (maybe two) I'm supposed to get.
I think I'll post a picture of each item before putting it on. Some I already own (I've been a sex toys fan and user for many years) but now I'm expected to be aware of what's going on while using the toys, in order to be able to truthfully write about it.
No nudes. I'm shy. 😀
Sometimes it's hard to keep this up. Especially when I stumble on other truly (or more obviously oriented) adult themed accounts on Mastodon.
I don't like to spread what I don't create. I think that's lazy. And I think there's a visual overload of all things sex related nowadays.
Do I watch porn? Yes, from time to time. But it's much more pleasurable for me to read a good erotic story or simply talk about sex and sexuality.
I aim to tease and interact, not to be a ready to consume product.
I tried a model of pocket pussy today: a simple sheath of very soft silicon material, modeled to resemble reality. The object itself feel more akin to an anti stress ball, of the kind you squish furiously to vent some steam.
It's actually nice to use. And because it's so small, watch it stretch to fully accommodate my manhood was oddly voyeuristic. It is also very stimulating, much more than I expected. It can, very easily, improve the experience of masturbation, solo or shared.
Some time ago I wrote I'm a bit of a size queen when it comes to dildos in a #pegging scenario.
I don't know why but I'm happy enough to admit that I am like I am and that is it.
The good news for me is that I'll soon have a full set of dildos to try (it will be solo at first) but I'll eventually get to be taken out for a test on all.
I need to stock on lube...
#sextoys; explicit text
I'm part of a project to start a sex shop and that implies trying and using male related toys.
Some don't affect my #nomasturbation like using cock rings and other similar accessories but some, like masturbation sleeves, will be a bit more hard to accommodate into my challenge.
This account is going to turn deep into #NSFW territory, starting today.
Because my #nomasturbation records were lost, I'll be keeping a backup record in a simple spreadsheet.
In parallel, I'll start keeping a record of every time I'll have sex. I'm also considering registering the acts involved in every occasion, just for the extra "fun".
Sadly, I had a somewhat loose record that it was lost; hopefully, I'll make it up from now on.
This is going to be fun.
Feel free to suggest a new hash tag for the new variable.
The device I was using to record my progress had an unfortunate and untimely demise, meaning I lost the entirety of the data I relied on to keep myself in check.
In order to be somewhat fair to my goal and try my resolution a little bit, I simply docked my time and decided I'll only count as official from the first day of 2019.
This means I'm back to #nomasturbation day 109. The current goal remains at 120 days. I'll keep adding 30 days extensions.
Time to get things official.
Being part of an ongoing project of a sex shop and official guinea for male products requires that I start producing something so, to begin, I'm going to do a series of articles on cock rings.
From the basics to more advanced topics, different types, models, and, if I get the nerve for it, some more extreme products.
The motto for the shop is "we know what we sell" so I have to put myself behind it.
Developments soon to come. Or "cum"? Oh well...
Next month I'll be getting a generic, so called, chastity device, for male use. It's another product I'll be testing for the catalogue being put together for our sex shop.
Been reading about these devices and the association between it and cuckolding/submission is tiresome. I can think about ways to use these devices in a context where none of those have place.